Countdown

I move to Ohio to be with him in 5 days. That is so scary I can't even descibe how I'm feeling right now. I can't wait to see him and I can't wait to start a better future but the whole moving so far away from everything I've known is really super scary. I know that I can come home at any time if I need to, I just have to get totally used to another home and completely move away from this one. He is worth every second of stress and hard work that this has taken and I am really excited to start something new...BIG HUGE CHANGES ARE COMING!!!

I am sad to be leaving my friends and family behind, it makes me really sad when I think about it, but then I think about the rest of my life and how I can't live for other people and I feel so much better. Like he always says you have to look out for number one and that's what all of this is about...me and him both equally as number 1 in my hear tand I'm following that. Cornball.

I hate moving, the process is just awful and I really don't want to ever do it again. I'm happy with the decision that I have made and I cannot wait to see my boy again..he's awesome and I miss him....it's going on 27 days since I've seen him...insane.

Went to see Hodgie last night, he's a sad little person. Rachel and I felt so bad for him we just sat on the floor and watched a movie because we didnt want him to be lonely haha.   He gave me a hug and said that he might bever see me again, but that I'm making the right choice and not let life pass me by. New chapter is about to start.