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I'm driving Kellen's car home today because I hit a median this morning and he was worried about my car being unsafe so he drove all the way over here to give me his car and take mine to get it fixed (there's nothing wrong with it). That's something I have never had before, someone care about something so small and stupid but so big at the same time. I am so happy that someone cares about me, about every aspect of me, and worries about my safety (other than family).

I can't wait to move away with Kellen and start a real life with him, not a living-with-my-family life. I will drain my savings and literally starve to death to do it. Last night was a breaking point for me; my mother is a loon and should be put away sometimes. I can't deal with her anymore especially when I have proven that I WILL be something someday but evidently that doesn't really matter.

My job is a cluster. I'm being taken advantage of. I do way too much work for them, I should be getting paid much more but it's a start and it's going to be a really great reference one day. I'll be rich in a huge house with a housekeeper and someone to go grocery shopping for me while I get my nails done. Yeah, that's what this shit is all about.

So, I'm a little worried about being pregnant. It's always been a worry for me no matter what. This time though I was less than careful. It's weird though, if by some horrible chance that it were to actually happen I think life would still go on and be okay. I already feel like Kellen has my back and wouldn't let anything happen to me. I think that he would be an amazing father and with him I would be an amazing mother. Granted, I still don't know if I want kids EVER, but if it does happen I feel the most comfortable with him on the subject. Weird.

Snyder's Class of '06 5 year reunion is coming up. Hahaha. The world will shit when Kellen and I walk in together. Can't wait for the pure mayhem! :) I'm so happy it's ridiculous.