Omission

Since I've been the queen of lies, cheating, and omission in all of my past relationships it would only make perfect sense that the first honest relationship I'm trying to have karma has to come and bite me in the ass. I am afraid of getting cheated on but mostly about being lied to about it first.

Don't try to hide things from me because I will find out. I don't care if you smoke, dip, whatever. However when you say you were discharged from the navy because of an injury and I come to find out that it is because of a less than honorable discharge due to a DUI then I will be upset. Why hide something like that from someone who obviously cares about you, would do anything for you, and would make sure you're alright. Why hide that for any reason? Be honest because in the end what else is there.

So, what next? It's not fair for one person to be completely honest and the other to be kind of honest, about some things. I can't ask someone to change and I can't ask for every detail of someone's life to be told to me, however, it's all been a lie so far. Small, stupid lies. Omission, detachment, stupid.

I fell too hard, too fast. I moved too far too fast. I wish I had listened and slowed things down. I just can't help that he actually means something to me. It just sucks that he can't be honest. I understand why he doesn't want me to know but it's not fair for me not to since I've given my all into this relationship.