RANT

So his mom has been here for 10 days visiting us..um...

Her being here has thrown off our personal routine, we don't kiss that much, we don't have sex (the one time we did she snooped), and we don't have any real alone time. It is just a phase that will pass and it really isn't a big deal but....

He looks at porn and jerks it all the time now! I guess I'm just ranting because my period is approaching and because I wish I could have sex with him ugh and I know that I can't until she leaves in 7 more days. I guess porn annoys every girl so I know I'm not the only one that feels this way but I just can't bring myself to say anything to him because it is SO stupid. It's a dumb self-esteem problem..."oh, well if he's looking at porn, he obviously doesn't want me" or "the girls in the videos he watches are way prettier or better than me". I know neither one is true and I know that he only does it because we can't act the way we would like to but still I would like to walk up and say to him "just because we can't have sex it doesn't mean you can jerk it all the time when I'm sitting here dying". A bit dramatic but whatever.