This past weekend has been pretty great. We took his mom out to Portsmouth and we went to a really nice dinner and a really cute shopping spree. He bought me many things and you really can't buy me, you can't buy love but sometimes it's just nice to be pampered.
Last week I found out that his ex-fiancee Meghan is now married. I felt like he needed to know, whether it made him sad or angry. He took it pretty well, I guess as anyone would that found out the girl they lost found someone else forever. I told him yesterday that I hoped that one day I could be the only girl that has his heart, I mean truly have have his heart..no response from him...well maybe one day. I can understand that she was the girl he fell for and that she was the one that he really wanted but I know that I'm extremely important to him.
He and I we went to Hampton Beach last night just to blow off steam, get some drinks, and play arcade games. We drank on the way down there and that was fun..but when we got there he got into a sullen mood. I tried my best to act like an idiot so that he would laugh or something but he just kinda looked at me and forced a smile. I then joked with him about having sex in the car (since his mom is here) and he thought it was funny. Later on he was angry that I kept bringing up sex. I also asked him why he gets so sad sometimes, why he looks so depressed at odd moments and why his eyes look so full of pain. He said that he's not sad but I know that he is because his mom isn't doing very well. There are many things that I know about her that he doesn't because she doesn't want to worry him but it hurts my heart because I don't know what I would do if it was my grandma.
The last conversation of yesterday was that I wasn't going to bring sex up again, I told him "I'm always here if you want me". Which is very selfless of me since there are two people in a relationship, not one. It just makes life a little bit easier because he gets so annoyed.
I put in a job application in a vintage boutique yesterday *cross fingers* !!!
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